Motivation

Everybody has the one thing that just drives them. That something that gives them the determination to do their best. And up until now, I didn't really know where my motivation came from, and apparently it's peer pressure. I know that sounds horrible, but it isn't in a bad way. I would call it competitiveness, but I don't care to be the best, I just don't want to be the worst.

When I did weight lifting in gym class, I just did whatever my group was doing, which to me, was very light and easy. No one was pushing me, I was in a group of weak people so I didn't feel the need to try my best. And this is the main problem. Another time in gym we did step aerobics. I have no rhythm, so it was very hard for me to keep up, thus forcing me to try my hardest and actually get a workout. Because if I were alone doing step aerobics I would do the easiest moves for like ten minutes then give up.

Today I bought a workout video, to see if I would actually try while doing this stuff. It's composed of 5 ten minute workouts and before I was called for supper I finished the full body tone and the stretching one. My legs freaking hurt. But I still feel the need to do the other 3 which are arm and shoulder sculpt, butt and thigh toner (I'm dead) and the ab one, which by the end of it I'll be dead tired, but hopefully happy. Because that lady in the video is scary, it wasn't until the end that I realized I was sweating and our of breathe. Also, did I mention it was with a resistance band? It's like a huge elastic and this one slapped me in the face. It wasn't a pleasant experience.

Anyway, on to my point: If I don't have someone tell me what to do and pushing me to do so, I won't do it to my full ability. I don't think this will work with studying, but I will find something that does. eventually.