Deleted because I don't want to be defeated.

That's right, I just spend two hours writing something only for it to be deleted. I deleted it because it depressed me. I literally wrote out everything terrible that has happened to me in the past year. I then realized that I hadn't really overcome any of it. It's sad to find out you're trying to fight for a lost cause. It's even worse when you try to give up and then realize that you fail at giving up as well. So basically I gave up on giving up. And I thought that was pretty hilarious.