Fears

My biggest fear would have to be vomit. I don't know why, but the idea of someone throwing up pre-eaten food just freaks me out. Although, I was able to sit through a movie where there was a boxer throwing up blood, thus making me more confused. Now whenever someone mentions that they feel sick to their stomach I will, 98% of time, go into panic. If someone goes up to the garbage can and bends over, I get panicky and it's starting to bother me, because the person is always just sharpening their pencil. If someone were to throw up in my room right now (besides me, I think I'd just sit and cry) I would jump and scream and then just stop being able to function. Like I don't rationalize when someone vomits, I literally just try to flee the situation even though it never feels like I physically can.

My parents believe that my fear of vomit came from when I was in the car with my older brother, and he announced that he was going to be sick. We pulled over, but then he told us he was fine, so we kept driving. No more than 30 seconds later he throws up all over himself and the car. And that is probably when I realized never to trust someone when they say they'll be fine, in any situation.

Today, I am out at the grocery store with my parents, when my brother calls my Dad's cell phone and tells him he's sick and we have to go get him. Now all I could hear my Dad saying was:

"What? Again?"

"You're sick? You threw up?"

And that's when I asked:

"Can I walk home?"

And since it was raining, I was told I was allowed. Even though it was only a ten minute walk. Now let's be logical for a second; If someone's fear of vomit comes from being in a car when her brother vomited, would putting her in a similar situation really be beneficial? No. So there was no way in hell that I was going to sit shaking in fear for 15 minutes. Both my parents have the nerve to tell me I was being ridiculous. My Dad yelled at me basically for being retarded. At this point I almost started crying because I was freaking out already and if my brother threw up in the car I would have actually opened the car door and jump out of the moving vehicle. I don't play games with fears like that. I can play games with the heights fear because it isn't that bad. But if I wanted to scare myself a little, I wouldn't sit in car with someone who was going to throw up and possibly drive me to have a melt down.

After some threats I got my parents to drive me home. Because who wants to be with someone who could have a melt down just sitting in the car with someone? Unless you're afraid of cars or that person happens to be a clown.