Anyway, I apparently need to rant, or I may explode, or implode. Explosions are more dangerous at this stage in the game. Because crying in public actually isn't terribly desirable. Implosion are just bad for my health.
Basically I read a story where a person was red, and I thought it was funny to take "What colour is my personality?" test. I got blue. Now before this testing took place, I was told to think purple thoughts, because purple thoughts are the best. It took me a couple days, but I then realized that blue + red = purple and I am royally screwed. I'm that the universe could be just a tad more obvious with their subtle hints. Well guess what? I'm stubborn and refuse to do anything. Why? Because I don't want to get into that situation. The end. That really isn't the end, because I'll probably change my mind in 3 hours and blog again.
Moving on.
I'm an idiot. I let people complain to me about their problems, and then I sympathize with them, when really, but they're saying is like a slap in the face to me. Rule of thumb should be that you should at least complain to someone who doesn't have the same problem that you THINK you have. Because honestly I have heard a lot of bull shit. I don't know why, but I seem to get a lot "And I can have this because money's tight." or "I can't afford that." I mean, I'm sure that I do appear to be the best person to say those things to, if you want me to complain with you. But no one cares when I try to say "Yea but I have to..." It's all about the other persons money issues. It's like I try to counter argue that what this person is saying is bad really isn't and I just get ignored. Why? I don't understand. I am in a better position to comment on the "tight on money" matter, but very few people seem to actually listen to what I say. I will now make one of those (funny, but in this case it may not be) top lists, like "Top ten reasons why you want to be Canadian" I may not get to ten, or I may surpass ten, depends on how this ranting goes.
The top reasons on why you (as a teen) shouldn't be able to complain about finical trouble.
1) Your family owns your house. Reason: Because there are a lot of people out there who cannot afford mortgage rates, or even get a loan for the down payment. So obviously you must have a stable well paying job if you own your house.
2) Your parents pay your cell phone bill. Reason: If your parents are paying for you to have a luxury, then you obviously can't have too bad of money issues. And yes, a cellphone is a luxury, not a necessity, unless you're a troublesome kid who likes to wander around downtown in back alleys. But then I think you'll have other things to complain about.
3) You didn't pay for the computer in your room. Reason: If someone else payed for the computer in your room, then don't bitch about having no money. The first computer in my room was something my Dad pulled out of the basement that was bought for under a hundred dollars over 5 years ago. That wouldn't really count, so ha ha.
4) You get to take lessons or play a sport. Reason: If your parents are paying a lot of money to put you in something fun and to keep you busy, then you can't complain about having no money. Having no money would be you in no sport or taking no lessons, but your family still can barely pay the bills.
5) When you go out to the store with your parents, they still buy you something. Reason: Does this need one? I'm not talking about a chocolate bar or pack of gum. I mean you go out and you see like a pair of shoes or a new book you like and your parents just buy it because you like it.
6) You go on random shopping sprees out of town. Reason: I'm sure if you're going to drive for 2 hours then this isn't a "Well I need a new pair of pants" kind if deal. It's a "I feel like getting a new _________ because I want one." The real kicker being that you don't even have to pay for any part of this.
7) You don't have to pay for your school supplies. Reason: I pay for mine, I pay for my field trips and any other fees for school that need to be payed. Once upon a time the bio teacher asked for 5 dollars so I asked my Dad for the 5 dollars (yes I assumed he would pay, being the parent in all) he told me he didn't have the money and that I had to pay for it myself. And people have the nerve to ask me why I didn't go on some 200 dollars trip. Because I don't have something who is supposed to be taking care of me pay for it.
8) You have a fridge full of good food. Reason: If you get to have milk (although I'm not too fond on the imploding stomach part) and fresh fruit everyday, you're pretty well off. Just because you don't like the food you have, doesn't mean you don't have food. It's your choice on whether or not you'll eat what's at your house. I can't stand eating at my house. Mainly because the diet consists of coffee, apples, cookies and hot dogs.
9) You actually don't understand all the bills. Reason: Parents don't want to tell you all about their finances. I just learned that my parents are still paying about 400 dollars a month to Money Mart because of some loan system my Mom got into. I'm pretty sure income tax it a big mystery to most people as well.
10) You haven't been taken for a ride in the money roll coaster. Reason: Actually more of a story:
Once upon a time my Dad was in a huge car accident where he was hit by a guy without insurance. Since his leg went into the dash board he partially tore his ACL making it painful to work more than an hour in the morning and then another in the afternoon. Making it very hard to make enough money to support a family. Because of this my Dad sued his own insurance company. After about 2 years there was a settlement and he received about 110k just a bit before Christmas 2006. Although there never really felt like there was any change. Besides that for Christmas I got an MP3 player and a cell phone and went on a week long trip to the Toronto area. But do you know what we did during this "vacation"? We racetrack hopped. Casinos, horse betting and we even went to a horse auction where we bought a horse. A couple years later, a few fail horses later, we were back to square one. We are here. Actually this all ended in like 2008, tops. About a year and a half and over 100 grand lost. I kid you not, this family is fucking insane. Before I got a job my parents used to borrow money from my older brother. He now refuses to lend them money because they won't give him his money back as fast as he wants.
Well they owe me 450 and if it's 500 by tomorrow I won't be surprised. I hate when people say that they money in their family is tight. I hate it even more when they don't realize how hypocritical their being. I hate that I can just tell them to stop and shut up because I can't do it, I can't. I just can't do it anymore. I can't sit through someone complaining about not getting something they want because they don't have the money, or their parents don't (a more likely complaint) because it hurts. It hurts when you're being so insensitive to even say such a thing. To ME. If you had an ounce of compassion you'd notice that I don't want to hear it, even if I try to. I try to listen because that's who I am. I will listen and I will cry with you. But at the end of the day I'm always crying because of how frustrating it is.
You don't understand, and I don't want you to anymore.
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