Trying so hard to do something negative.

Or something that would touch someones heart gently.

Maybe I can't get feelings out anymore, all I seem to be able to do is cry. Yet it's fine. Everything is fine when you believe it is. And I believe.

I've always wanted to feel others pain, and I always have. Some I really feel for, some deserve whatever is happening to them. Some are just taking something for granted and complaining about it. Ungrateful. They don't deserve my tears, yet they get them.

Maybe your words are all I will never understand, I look for an inner meaning, but it's a surface, staring at me. Am I writing to no one? Does it matter when words get out? Never. I love you, your beautiful, please don't ever change. Touching. All I want right now is to put a voice to the words, but your gone.

You get what you give. Since all you seem to have done is take, time, love and a part of something important. You don't need to get anything. You don't actually believe that, do you? You did something good? No. Never. I pity the next guy you ruin's reputation. I may not have liked him, or like him now, but you fucked him over, and I realized that as soon as I did. I'm going back to two years ago. You bad, he good. Smart.

And stop using words you don't know the meaning of.