We are all innocent. We are.

"I won't be like my parents"

Most of us say this, I have too, but somehow we all will turn out like our parents.

I am going to emotionally scar my children, neglect their needs, use favouritism and threats that will eventually let them to wanting suicide.

What is really want is to be a mentor, I want to raise children on love and respect, not laughs and pain. I want to support life choices, not matter what they are. I do not want my children to fear speaking their mind. I want to get a good paying job so I can take care of them properly. I only want thought of a Mother who truly cares.

Today is the day I realize what a shitty person I am. From the bottom of my heart will I say I am sorry, sorry for all the terrible things I have caused. The horrible thoughts I made real. The thoughtless things I've said.

In realizing, I believe there is hope. And in hope there is love.

In apologies I believe there is always room for forgiveness. But to forget is the harder part of it all. To be able to forgive then forget is the greatest gift of all. I can do none of those, and maybe never will I be able to.

One day, I will stand before you, and say it like I mean it.

I am sorry.