Just put down the weed, and shoot me in the face. Exactly. Happily Never After. I might as well become asexual. I'm deleting my life it seems. I don't want part of all this. I don't drink. I don't smoke. I don't do drugs. And I don't want anything to with anyone else who does any of these things. This heart has been stabbed too many times. Hurt, but never broken. I don't break, I falter. Losing sleep is the last thing I need. Work is for the living, drugs are for the inhumane. Some weed everyday and I'll watch you fade away. I don't care if you like any part of me, the only part of you I like are your eyes. Were your eyes. Couldn't care less. Just jump off that building. Everybody makes mistakes. But not everybody is cowboy. You can just jump on that horse and expect to be able to ride. I believe in the wonderful. Swear to God. Become a Mormon. Leave this town. Become a circus clown. Makes some sense. Kill some people. Kill myself. Do it all over again. Never will I trust people. Trust is for the weak. Never let your guard down. Do not trust a Ross. I know what I mean if it makes any sense to you. This is nothing. But if you know me well enough. Nothing is everything, and anything can be everything. I refuse to love. I refuse to try. Trying is for those who are incapable of greatness on their own. I am better than most without trying. Think of the possibilities. Think of the world. Think from your head to your toes. To his big Italian nose. One person will understand that, and that is all. They will never read this. I will never re-read this. Proofreading is useless. Because perfect is lie. Try to not succeed. When you fail you fall, but at least it's like flying. I loved. I lost. I will get revenge at all cost. If I could dance I would. If I had the chance, to say that I hate you, I would. If I could. Clear my head. Cleanse my mind. Maybe I'll be fine. If I hate you, you're gone. If I don't know, you're gone. If you make me want to punch a wall. Guess. I want to leave this world for a foreign guy. Elton John is always right. Carrots in a green jello mould. It's all right, you're all wrong. I hate you. I fucking hate you. Depression is not a reality, It's a lie. A lie someone made up. Your life isn't fucked up. Your broken family is sad. But I don't care if it upsets you. Because it was for the best. You could have worse. We all could have worse. Some people can actually appreciate that once in a while. I don't care if drug addictions run in your family. I don't give a damn if you say you love me now. I can't. Pride. Honestly. Don't try me. Don't take to me about poor. Don't show me a picture of your house and try to tell me you have issues. You have two parents with stable jobs. And you think you can tell me I don't know the definition of poor? Welfare. That is all. Holes get dug, over filled and then dug even deeper. Until we reach China. What a magical moment. Laugh. He reminds me too much of my brother. But I want to help him, but I won't, I can't. I can't deal with my problems anymore. But it doesn't matter. It's not important. A solution will not be hard to find. Search. Hide never be found. I search the air, but don't the ground. The floor is lava. I wish I could escape. Rocketman, I know I can. I want to live life from a new perspective. I want to sleep at night. If only he was there to sing me that lullaby. Close your eyes. Go to sleep. When you awake. I'll be gone. Nightmare. The dream catcher. It haunts. It stares. I touch down onto Earth. Earthquake. No I can't move. I'm stuck in this chair. In this intoxicated room. Professional nail artist. I can't think because of the fumes. When all fails. When life doesn't prevail. Take everything you hate. And delete it.