At least your pain stops.

Mine never quits nagging me.

I'm sure you can understand slightly on how it is to feel, like me. Or maybe you don't. Maybe you understand the psychical pain I receive, but you can't understand the emotional pain. I'd trade pains with you, just so you can go psycho in your own mind for once.

Physical pain will hurt. But it will end, someday. Emotional, or how you'd prefer me to call it mental pain is hard to cure. I'm sure you'd love it if I was mentally unstable wouldn't you? "Would you like to go to the nut bar crack head?" Yes, I would.

I won't sit here and try to make you seem completely horrible, because I know you're not. I know you try, sometimes, to be a decent person. I know that you and I can fake a personality so good that no one knows who you are anymore. You've forgotten how alike we are that it has back fired on you.

In a way, we are completely different. You handle tough situations by hurting people's feelings, and I talk them through. I look for a light and you look for a reason to call someone a nasty name.

If any of those poor kids knew what you said about them behind their backs. They wouldn't like you, they'd loathe you, you would not be their hero. I'm not like you in that perspective. You may think people want to be known by what you have done. What have you done? You were good at sports and had huge hair, good job. No one wants to be related to someone they'd like to hate.

When we dream of growing up, having families, most of us say we want to be unlike our parents. It's either because some wanted to be babied and spoiled. For some, it's because they want to build their family on love and compassion.

Maybe I'll just be like all the other teens who say that, but for kicks, I want to write down how I'd like to raise a family.

Self-Worth. Being comfortable with your self and what you do. It's so hard to have it now, that it seems only few possess this. I want to teach people that is okay to themselves. That if they are proud of something, that it should be show cased for the world to see. I want to show my children that they are worth more than they'll ever think.

Acceptance. Accepting other people who may be different. I grew up in a homophobic house and I refuse to pass that along. If you can't learn to accept others, you yourself should not be accepted.

Courage. Not "I'm going to walk into that dark, scary cave" Courage. Deep, emotional courage, that kind that screams 'I'm different and happy to be.' I once said that raising a child who was comfortable being Gay would be wonderful. Because I would feel like I succeed in making this kid know who he/she was. That they had the guts to tell everyone who they really are and were proud of it. If my family doesn't like this kid because of that, they deserve to be on such a Earth with this lovely individual.

Those are probably the 3 most important to me. Because with those comes others like love, comfort, happiness, determination and esteem.

When I start to live
I want to live my life
When I start to believe
I will sleep at night