I am

I am still up because:
I need closure
To this night
Because without you
It doesn’t feel right

I am still up because:
My eyes hurt, my throat is sore
When I have nightmares
I can’t scream no more

I am still up because:
The drugs have stopped working
I’m immune to no pain
And I’m the only one to blame

I am still up because:
I am stressed
And I must confess
It’s partly my loneliness


I am still up because:
The lights won’t turn off
But it’s all in my head
And in my ears, it keeps ringing
The last words you said

I am still up because:
I can’t close my eyes
All I ever see is you
I am sick of this
And I want to be through

I am still up because:
It hurts to breathe
And I know what
To BeLIEve

I am still up because:
I feel like I need to cry
Even though, my eyes are dry



I am still up because:
I can’t stop coughing
When I cough, I taste blood
When I taste blood
I think of you

I am still up because:
My heart is broken