Caffeine and Codeine.

It's all hilarious when you get caught.

It's not that you use illegal drugs, but I'm sure you have at one point in your life. Because why would you even try uttering the words:

"I've been clean for a year"

If they weren't clean from something, I know you're messed up in the head, but you're not that stupid.

It's the fact that you take a legal substance and abuse them, to a point where you've lost all control. You had 9, 10kg bags of opium poppy seeds in your room. All your Ritalin pills on the floor. At least a dozen of caffeine and codeine pill bottles.

If you really tried to use "I'm depressed" as an excuse, I have some news for you. One of the main side effects of those caffeine codeine pills, is depression. You made yourself depressed, you dug yourself into a hole, and the only way to get out is to cover it with more pills.

You obviously need help, but I don't think you deserve it.