When today isn't your day.

You feel lost, hopeless, like nothing else could make it any worse. You've been swallowed by a shadow of doubt and hatred. Life sucks when you're at the bottom of the food chain, you feed off other people for optimism, and at the time, nothing works. You walk it all off, to calm yourself down, because things do not have a reason for happening, and it doesn't mean it wasn't meant to be. When you reach the end of your walk you end up at a place full of pain and hurtful memories, but having your hope restored you continue on inside. You are greeted with a refreshing silence, hell isn't so hot right now. But moments later you are faced again with a bout of hatred mixed with rage. You watch a whole life pass before your eyes. You watch welfare come into play, rejection and more hatred. You wonder how much hate can be in one place. Love isn't here much anymore. This is when you snap into the real world, everything you hear hurts your ears, you scream inside and have a battle with your own mind. No one can live the way you have. We all say we can't handle our lives, but not everyone lives from one payment to another. Not everyone misses meals because their simply isn't money for somethings. Not everyone wakes up to a home of abuse and addiction. But still, you carry on, because you know what? Life is a horrible place but if you dwell on everything bad you'll never be able to open your eyes for all the good life brings.